He is what I want. In all my loneliness, in my grieving, in my parenting, in my spiritual growth..... He is all I want. That is enough for me, for my existence.
It has been a while since I last talked with you. My brother Johnny was visiting for two weeks, Christmas, New Years, working and parenting. I am also realizing that I am still deep in the grieving stages. So I knew that I should update the blog but it became too easy to just relax, watch a movie, play a game, put a puzzle together. So here I am. I don't think that I have grieved adequately for myself because I have been so busy keeping the family together, and seeing to it that they are staying happy. Christmas was wonderful with the family but Christmas Eve was a tearful time when I was out finishing up with some gift wrapping and looking at Susan's picture above the fireplace with her stocking hanging from mantel. There was a flood of Christmas Eves past. A huge void. I miss her.
Here is a picture of some of us with Santa Claus. Every Christmas Eve for the last 10 years, this guy has come around to give candy canes to all of us. I don't know who he is, but he knows our names. Just a figure out of no where that pays us a visit each year.
And here is a picture of all of us on Christmas day after we opened presents and after dinner. What a good looking bunch. I really do love my kids. They made the days special.
And we have had a record snowfall here. Like 90 inches for the month of December. We have shoveled our roof twice now because of the large snow storms that we have had. We have been too busy shoveling even to go snowboarding as a family. Soon though. Here is a picture of my brother Johnny up on the house, clearing snow.
And to put it in perspective, here is a picture of our STOP sign out front of our home. This was several weeks ago too. Alot of it was piled up from the snowplow but still pretty awesome to see the accumulation. The piles around our driveway are 6-7 feet tall. It definitely was a White Christmas.
Be praying for me, Leah, Nathan and my nephew Christian. We are all going to run in the PF Chang Rock n' Roll Marathon in Phoenix on Jan 18th. We will be flying down on the 15th of Jan. Training has been a challenge especially for the long runs which we can't do because of the weather outside. Treadmill running just isn't the same. But it will be fun.
Too you all, His grace and peace. Thanks for being patient. Love Doug
3 comments:
We will be thinking of you all running and the ones staying back. So glad you get to also spend time with Susan's family in Arizona. It is neat that you are competing in the marathon---but the really neat thing is the race you continue to run each day in her absence--that is profound and that takes the real discipline and courage---so many are cheering that race in the silence of their hearts for you. We love you much and continue to pray for healing.
Cindy
We are looking forward to you coming down! We pray for a safe trip and a good week of health, nutrition and healing of any aches and pains.
See you soon!
Christian, Laurel, Kaden and August
P.S.
That is a great picture of the stop sign!!
Christian
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